Oh how I hate money! It is such a stressful thing. Job hunting is even more stressful. The whole trying to trust the Lord and stay positive thing is proving a bit difficult today. But I will keep trying to be optimistic and keep praying with all my heart that Mr. Pulchritudinous (Ben) will become gainfully employed this week in a steady good paying job. My heart breaks for the frustration and inadequacies that he feels. I wish that I could give him all the confidence in the world and that others could see him how I do. I want more than anything for him to be able to provide for us so that he feels like he is doing his part/role in taking care of us. It is hard to hear the daily apologies for not being able to provide all that we need and want. Today has been discouraging for both of us. I do love him so!!
I will however, keep staying positive and saying to myself that "WE WILL FIND EMPLOYMENT THIS WEEK, NO MATTER WHAT!" That is our goal and we will do all we can to achieve it. Trials and hardships are such interesting things to try and understand. Is this one for me to develop and learn something or is this one so that I can say "I understand! We have been there" to someone else that is struggling with the same trial.
I know that I am a loved daughter of God and that we can and will make it through this most difficult time.
Sorry for the sob-story post today.
2 comments:
Not a sob story. I hate money to. I say bring on the law of consecration, as long as I can have X, Y and Z ..... OK, so maybe I'm not quite "there" yet - but this is such a tough trial!!!!
I think you are both fantastic wonderful big-hearted people with huge blessings just around the corner.... here's hoping it's this week!!!!
I'm with you on the "going through things so you have empathy for others." It's hard to see that at the time, but it's great you are sensitive to that now. Money problems are NO FUN! And I can say that because I've been through that and can now empathize a little with others in the same boat. I hope your hubby finds something this week!
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